It's been a while...

Today, I am finding my way back to this journal after a long absence.
I have been sadly distracted by life, but not necessarily because of good happenings within it. Within the past year, my department left Dallas, and along with it a job that took me over two long years to figure out.
Now I am in a position that leaves me brain-dead and surrounded by risk that constantly has my blood pressure raised and my blood glucose levels off the charts.
I was supposed to move back to NY but let's just say, I got screwed over.

I moved in October to my dream apartment but lost my beloved Margit in September.
I was looking forward to our one year anniversary together, and sharing my love for the Autumn season with her. She died just hours before the official start of Fall.
I so wanted to give her a warm hearth to snuggle upon, and a patio for bird watching. She was a gift to me, a beautiful, sweet, loving, funny soul and I will miss her daily morning greetings, when she would hear my alarm and jump to snuggle with me upon my bed pillows.
This loss left me very angry and sad. I will dedicate a post to her in time.

Yesterday was my birthday and I feel very blessed with my family and my friends.
My mom and Mouse bought me a beautiful laptop, which is why I am blogging at the moment. I want to go back to school and do something meaningful with my life.

I have gerber daisies and tulips in the house as it feels different with flowers sprinkled about. It feels good, like a home. Like my home.